Depression

I'm not recognizing myself anymore

I don't know

It never happened before

I feel so fucking sad

I wish I could take all these feelings

And throw it away

You'd like me to do that

But I can't, I simply don't know how to do that

It's so easy to say that

"Smile and move on..."

But it's not that easy to do that

I'd love to forget all the damn things

That make me feel like this

If I knew what is it

But I don't even know what's

Driving me this way

I'm getting crazy

I don't know where to take energy

And will to smile everyday

To pretend that everything's alright

I hate to pretend

But I have to do that so I don't hurt the people around

Now I think maybe I've found a way

To feel better

Maybe writing I can feel better

I think I won't, but baby

What else can I do?

I don't know

If you know, please tell me quickly

Cause my time is running out

I'm in the end of this shit

I'm almost giving up on this

I'd like it was easy even to talk about it

But how can I talk about something I don't even know??

I'm feeling sad, depressive, like I was bleeding inside

And I'm feeling so angry, so furious

I don't even know who I am

I'm leaving now.